Are you born alive?

I want to feel; not even to feel as much as survive.
Feelings have no meaning; numbness would feel alive.
I don't know if I'm past the point of no return, or even if I have ever had the chance to learn.
Is living a learned feeling, or are you born alive?
If you should be born alive, is there a way to continue un-living and still survive??

Wanted

Wanted: my life, my soul, my heart, a goal.
I am searching for a dream, something to make me feel alive.
I lost myself in emptiness and woke up striving to thrive.
I can't explain the pain I feel, or the hole I have inside,
There is no way to tell the depth but know that I cannot hide.

incomplete......

Loneliness

LONELINESS

Daylight comes too soon
I need the comfort of a dark sky, with no moon.
At least the blackness shares how I feel
and all of my emotions can come out and be real.
No need to smile or put on a show,
no one to lie to so they can pretend that they know.
Even in the day hours, the sky is Grey,
it reminds me of things I feel and can't say.
I want to hide in a corner and pretend I don't exist,
but life goes on as a reminder that I wouldn't be missed.
All alone in my bed I lay,
waiting for loneliness to take me away.